prima apocalyptica

Ever since my photo shoot i have felt like i finally found my calling , like i finally have a place. mike uploaded some more pictures and i just get giddy every time i look at them. it is so amazing how a model and photographer can take your design and turn it into something so much more. when i create my designs i see this vision in my head and without the model and photographer i would never be able to get that across. OH! I've come up with a name for my new collection :Prima Apocalyptica. i like it.
lately i have been cruising google looking for grants for fashion designers. there really aren't many of them out there but I'm still going to apply to them all. i sometimes wish i would have had the confidence to do this so many year ago. but, everything happens for a reason and without my life experiences my designs probably wouldn't even be a fourth of what they are now.
in other terrifying news i was in Fred Meyers grocery store yesterday and let go of my daughters hand for literally one second only to turn around and she was gone. i started screaming. i have never been so scared in my life. luckily she was hiding around the corner. i swooped her up and gave her a huge bear hug. she is NOT allowed to walk in stores again. I'm strapping her tightly in the ERGO next time. but on the upside a woman in the store said to me with a grimacing look " you look too young to be her mom, what are you sixteen or something" and i retorted "at least when I'm your age ill look twenty right?". it felt good to defend myself and zing some jealous woman after so many ugly stares , snickers and rude comments. seriously! i am 22 i have been with my partner for 5 years. we planned this child. people like that don't care about the facts though. they are self loathing reptiles.
well,enjoy the pictures!

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my invisible mannequin

I've been trying to force myself to stay in my sewing room so i can get all my work done before the 8Th. i made 2 dresses today and i have no idea how. it is incredibly hard to drape when you don't have a dress form. i have to- try it on, pin, take it off, sew - over and over. i would probably do just about anything for a mannequin right now. or at least a human wiling to stand in my sewing room for a few hours. but id probably have to pay them and well. . .
so the dresses i made today are created from a tan duvet cover, and old tutu and 2 free boxed tanks and a ton of scrap lace. i was really inspired by coral and seaweed and sea creatures. i know the color is not reminiscent of that but the shapes are. i hope it looks good during the photo shoot. I'm really nervous about it. i personally am thrilled about my dresses. the only thing that I'm not satisfied with is that i only have black thread and right now i cant even afford to go buy thread. it looks a little off but I'm hoping i can add some decorative stitching and make it look like i used black on purpose. ahh to be poor, it forces you to be creative. so for all you crafters out there try this: leave all your money behind and go digging around for materials, you may just be surprised at what you can create.